fame.... or lack thereof.....

Over the weekend...... wow..... just too many things...... lets start with thrusday, which was a decent day, where me and my friend and production partner chris, did our first podcast (or rather attempted) for this blog, along with me finally figuring out how to sign up with a site that helps me distribute my blog as well, so that was a productive day (the blog's 1st part will be up tommorrow, if not tonight). It was slightly nuts, since there was a tornado warning, in cali, so I stayed @ chris' pad (big thanks to his mom for letting me do so) . On friday, my mom fell I'll and I had to rush her to the emergency room. On saturday, I watched RAMBO..... ehhhhh. It was directed my stallone, and in that regard, it wasn't that bad, although it was a bit short, which wasn't that bad. And what's more, I notice that stallone likes to cheat in sequels that he stars in a series that he directs by inserting gratuitous flashback shots from the previous movies in the series..... I guess he thought," fuck shooting flashback footage, because techically, I shot three flashback MOVIES. And goddamnit, I'm Sly motherfucking Stallone." I guess. On sunday, I spent it with my mom at the hospital, and met her absolutely adorable nutritionist..... the problem was, she remembered me from somewhere, either from the last time I was there with my mom, or if I met her at a party or something, which made me feel terrible. On top of that, she seemed rather sweet on me, which, mind you, is never a bad thing (my mom even took notice, as did her bedridden roomate.) Later that night, I mixed down a song for chris that he did for her girlfriend, (upon getting his permission, I'll post it up here tonight.) He had to take his mom to the hospital as well. So, while he went out to tend to his mom, I stayed and worked on the song for him. When he arrived, we got into a heated discussion on whether or not I should have my name on his upcoming project, RoKcAnDY. I am definitely gonna work on it, but I'm always a little resistant to putting my name on things like that, even if I deserve it. Granted, I have worked with some high profile pop and rock acts (that I'm obviously not gonna name), but even with that, I used my pseudonym for that. I love pseudonyms, because they are the masks that I wear to make myself secure enough to be every version of myself that I strive to be. I actually started as a hiphop prodcuer, and expanded to more music. I'm a credited producer, writer, and mixing/mastering engineer. As I expanded, I decided that I didn't want to be pigeonholed into just one genre, yet at the same time, I didn't want my versitility to be a gimmick either. So, I arrived at a solution.... have a different pseudonym for everything i do musically and theatrically (I have about five, not to mention a imaginary band, in which I am basically the only member). So natrually, I was pretty hesitant to put my name on his project. He stressed that it wasn't his project; it was OURS. Good point. We have been working on this project for about 4 months now, and since its about to materialize, it was good to clear this up. My only real hangup, was that I never want to person to affect the judgement of the work that person puts out. If I ever get famous, I will be the most reluctant celebrity out at that time. But make no mistake, I WILL milk that shit. Not in the 5 cars, 2 houses, and STILL buy a fucking bionic horse just to roll around in a show off, but in the sense that I'll do stupid shit and get away with it. Not anything illeagal (so much), but rather just something senseless, and pass it off, having people saying, "yeah, I totally see why he slammed his garage door on lance armstong's tractor," because of course, I needed to make that point. Not the "I hate all monotesticaled men, cause you're half of me!" point, but rather the "what the FUCK is armstong doing on a fucking tactor??? Stick to bikes bitch!" point. Sometimes it needs to be done.